" I Fantasize...

*sigh* (I was going to really write something but I learn that some things are better left unsaid... so here is how I feel in song form) CAUTION: I am a dreamer so I'm always "IN LOVE" in thought! Don't worry nobody had my nose wide open .... yet.

"Call me crazy... I'm real with MINES.

I'm beat so I'm going to make this post quick! After another go getting grind hard week I found the time to converse with Pam Mines (Author of "God Chose Me" http://www.luvemlikeminespublishing.com/). I won't go into detail about the convo but long story short it was based on the fact that being honest about how you feel & what you want is OK as long as you don't allow your emotions to run your life. She told me she was proud of me because even though I do want that "somebody" I def don't limit myself on the pleasures of life & happiness! As I always tell myself & my ladies 'The King will appear when the Queen IS READY" So with that said If I like you ...(SO WHAT) it doesn't mean if you don't like me back my heart will be broken chances are I LIKE someone different every week! NEVER LET 'EMOTIONS' RUN YOUR LIFE... everything is exactly as it should be, all the things you lack are because in a way unseen they are unhealthy for you. Rejoice that God is able to see what we can't ;)

(PRESS PLAY... Lyrics are DOPE)

What the FREAK!?!

So as you all may or may not know I am VERY vocal about my opinions on most every topic especially SEX. I feel like from a womans perspective we have been made to mask our physical desires & wants. You would think that along with voting rights women would be liberated from these sexual double standards that clearly still exist. The truth is there is NO right way to have casual sex. If a single woman is a "hoe" for exploring her inner sex kitten then what are men? What difference does it make if you screw 10 men in 10 days or 10 men in 10 years?? You still have experienced the same amount of variety "10 IS 10". Now that we have the foundation of topic cleared up let's get to the REAL point. FREAKS;; some men say they don't trust a "freak" in fear that sex is all she is after & she is incapable of being in a monogamous relationship, my reply to that would be THAT'S BULLSHIT stop believing it! If men didn't really want a "freak" they wouldn't cheat. All men & women want the same thing, someone who is kind, LOYAL, trusting, & has great SEX. In order to be fully fulfilled in a relationship all parts of it must be in sync, so because a woman is vocal about her sexual behavior it does not negate from her capability to be a trustworthy "down ass" chick, in fact she is probably more likely to be just fit for a wife due to her willingness to PLEASE her man. In no way am I promoting promiscuity, as I mature DAILY I find that my body should be held sacred & not every man who woo's me should enter my temple unless he has ALL of me but I am simply killing the myth that a woman can't be freaky & a good girl at the same time. You have to look deeper into that person to make the assumption & not on sexual actions. Just like men women LUST & want to test drive that "thang" before they buy. A SMUT is the one you have to look out for, SMUTS have no life, no goals, no sense of companionship & only know how to open those legs .

Well it's been real I'm OUT.

B.Ross (Former PROUD freak! *in 2010 I've decided to close the cookie jar... maybe.)

"I have a DREAM...

So;; while most people were relaxing & reflecting on this beautiful MLK holiday I had a hands on salon interview & LANDED the job ;) It didn't dawn on me the significance of this day until my teacher called & left me a message relating MLK's dream with my dream that is coming true right in front of me. I almost had a moment when I thought about how blessed I am to be living a dream, a dream that is possible because of those before me. Another sign hit me today as I was watching the Rosa Parks story on BET. There was a scene when the barber shop was worked by all black hands yet owned by the white man, funny I now work in a salon OWNED by a lovely BLACK couple! Oh what a day (DREAM)...

MLK

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."
Martin Luther King, Jr. ♥

Dear Lover Friend,

Can't deny that it's attraction that made me aim to get it,
glad you made a move coz I was too shy to admit it
now weeks are passing and I'm still letting you hit, cant quit it, coz I like the way you feel up in it
never kiss and tell I keep our meetings on the low
I think the fun would be lost if I let our secret show
I don't express it but I get upset when it's time to go
you keep me wanting more as if there's parts of you I have yet to explore
I'm trapped in by this lust that mental knows aint right but it never stops me from transforming into your concubine for the night feeling like The Roots "you making sounds like the vibe got you reaching your heights" roll with the one that's breaking you off....I keep it tight lyyykkkkkeee lol ;)

Enjoy The Roots video "Break You Off"
"Keep each other thirsty
Kisses like Hershey
But lips is sealed
'Cause we don't need the controversy
I say I'm in town, You say you want it in the worst way

"Thinking of the many faces of men...NONE are him.

For the last couple of years I have had a dream of this man, I don't know who he is or what he looks like... but HE is love. I actually FEEL this man in my dreams he holds me, talks to me but in a whisper way where words are muffled and when I wake I feel this warmth. It's crazy what can occur while you sleep & how pictures can be painted in your mind & you awake and remember them like it's real life... I think dreams are PRE life. I truly believe that some dreams are messages from God giving you a preview of what's to come & it will come if you let it. The song below "Love is Blind" is referring to man in the flesh but I feel like this about the man in my dreams. Every time I have a "loverfriend" I feel like I'm cheating, BUT cheating myself because I can tell off bat that HE is not the him I dream of, I'm just pretending ...I imagine the faces of men but NONE are him.
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