Throughout my entire life even through childhood I've had these stages where nothing seems quite right but in the midst of it evolves my best artistic work. It's a rage I go through where I don't want to talk to people, go anywhere, do anything but sit in my room & write for hours, paint, sing, dance, dress up. Even as an adult I do this. I think if I exposed this side of me people would literally think I'M CRAZY, BECAUSE i WOULD TRY TO EXPLAIN TO THEM SOMETHING i DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND. I truly think it's the lost actress in me wanting & longing to perform. If you don't know I've been acting & in theater since I was young. It's the only place I completely fit in & CRAZY is the normal! While studying theater in New York my teacher handed me a script of a girl who was an artist & I had to perform "naked" & bend down in front of my class while reading this poem that my character wrote, I (SHE) grabbed her boobs, swung her hips, & spread her womanhood while screaming a poem to the top of her lungs... I felt so free when I did it. I became her & my teacher thought it was amazing how I was able to connect with such a strange script. I want to live in character everyday.... 
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