UNSCRIPTED

Not huge on explanations as to why I neglect my blog, but I'm back... with things to say :)

 In life we don't get the chance to hit pause, rewind and watch ourselves fuck up...we just keep playing and playing until we decide or we are forced to change roles; sometimes we throw out our entire script and start over. I'm a writer and sometimes an actress. I will live and write about it and live again and write about it, and each story, poem,"note -to- self" that I write is a confession, almost as if I am repenting to the universe and God for "test shooting" before the director (GOD) yells action! I have become addicted to acting (living) and I feel like there is an art to living. It all began with realizing that I don't HAVE to do anything. When we wake up we have the option to ACT anyway we choose fit, our wardrobe are our costumes and the earth is our set. Most of us act out every detail of our life according to what has already been written and scripted for us to do. We have a work schedule that someone has made for us, we have a HIGHER POWER that someone has told us to pray to, we have foods that people say we should and should not eat, we love who people tell us to love BUT we forget that we do have an option.Realizing that I had an option then realizing that some of those options are so well manipulated to keep up trapped in a uniform state of living is what brings me to war... sometimes with myself and sometimes with others. God has created us all to use the power of discernment to unlock the key to the script that he so well designed for us to star in. (LET ME TAKE A QUICK MOMENT TO SAY THAT THE ONLY THING REAL, UNSCRIPTED IN LIFE IS GOD...FOR REASONS THAT NO MAN HAS A VALID ARGUMENT TO DISPUTE OTHERWISE. WHETHER U THINK GOD IS THE SUN, SANTA, OR A BOOK, YOU KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING GREATER THAN US... HE IS THE DIRECTOR) Most of the people who realize this option we have to act freely use it to do evil, they rape, steal, shoot, and seek havoc over others who are actors in a play that they don't even realize they are co-starring in & this is what saddens me. For me, once I realized the option God had revealed to me I wanted to live according to his word in MY life, a positive being someone who encourages LOVE, peace, and open mindedness. My new found love for living so freely and lovingly has brought me to a point of vulnerability and fickleness but because I know each person may be trying to figure out the art of living themselves I promised me that I would be a person that never makes anyone feel like they are bound to be what I see them as being or anything other than the standard of simply being GREAT... I've done a lot of loving and living and questioning lately and in my journey of living I've realized that I have simply been preparing myself for the role God has set for me (which is unknown as of today). I thought at 22 that I knew myself and funny how at 23 I am still a growing woman NOT a grown woman... I have played many roles, the student, the teacher, the good girl, the freak, and all of them have been ME...  they have been me trying to balance being ALL I can be in one lifetime...and my only peace is that within every role I play I am neither the villain or the hero I am that character that is FAIR and just and sometimes gullible  but the point I have learned thus far is the me RIGHT NOW is playing the role of a solider who is mentally an physically preparing for war because as the world discovers their options and finds a way to live unscripted some will use it for good and some won't  and I want to encourage you ALL to start rehearsing (preparing for your role) because we need strong godly persons who will unselfishly play their part... I no longer believe that religion, homosexuality, race, or whatever MAN has scripted to divide us is the issue. The issue is US trying to remember the "lines" that those before us wrote out ....unlearn it all and FEEL your way through life 'Blessed is the man who has not yet seen but still believes' WE MUST LIVE FOR US NOW.... "ACTION"!

Ask God to center you/ meditate
Share your thoughts
Listen to others
Love
Be about  positive ACTION

*Continues to live*